I'm Back!!!!

I’m Back! It’s been awhile since last I posted, but I needed some time to “get some things” off of me. Some of you may know that my four (4) year old, Dorrien, was diagnosed with a mild speech delay about two (2) years ago. This hit me really hard because my children are a “soft” spot for me. You can do or say anything to me or anything can happen to me – I’m a pretty tough cookie, but when it comes to my kids; well, it’s hard for me. All parents want their kids to be healthy and whole in all areas of life. My husband and I are healthy people; we work out and try to eat right. I did all that my doctors told me to do during ALL of my pregnancies, and still this happened. The topic of autism has come up, but we are at a “wait and see” type deal. Dorrien is very smart and has good social skills; so they have just diagnosed him with a mild developmental delay. Well my two (2) year old son, Gianni, is going through this very same thing. He’s said a word here and there, but is not talking the way he should. He smiled, laughed and played like any normal kid; I know the signs of early autism; I’ve read about them. By the age of eighteen (18) months, he was still not talking. Gianni’s a smart kiddo too and very active and independent. Dorrien is receiving services and is doing very well in school – he had an awesome first teacher (ME), and Gianni will have an evaluation early January and start to have services. None of this change the way I feel about boys; I’m gonna love, hug and kiss on them even when they don’t want me too; I’m Mom, I can do that. But there was a part of me that wondered why………… I could not understand why this happened to my boys. I was healthy, took my vitamins, ate well, exercised and had no complications during birth. I began to wonder if I were being punished for past sins (I know they are under the Blood); I mean, what did I do to deserve this? I wasn’t angry with God; I just didn’t understand. Not once, but twice this happened. I know what statistics say about boys going through this more than girls, but I serve the Most High God; I’m the King’s Kid…. It truly does rain on the just and unjust alike; I am no exception. I took this time off to “get this off of me”. When I found out about Dorrien about two (2) years ago, I cried and cried. When crying was over, it was time for action! With Gianni, I didn’t do so much crying, just a lot of “self-soul-searching”. I could not hear from the Lord clearly with all these questions constantly swirling around in my head. I will not write if I cannot hear. Yes, I can look in the back of the Bible and pick a topic or write about a “hot topic” in the Bible. I am more interested in writing a “timely” message, what God is saying now, not to just simply “pick a topic” that sound good. I want to write about what the Lord has to say, not what I have to say about a topic. Anybody can quote scripture and talk about it, but is it what people need to hear right now, today? Yes, I write about things I have gone through, and how God brought me through, but only on those things that I believe God wants me share. God is ALWAYS speaking, but we have to be in a place to hear Him. I have not been in “that” place; thus, I haven’t written. Some things take time for us to “get over”; others not so much. But we should never be in a rush, take time to deal with things that way they can’t “rear their ugly heads” again. I came to the realization that I, we – others, may never know why our child has delays or is diagnosed with autism, but questions I asked myself, or rather I heard were: “Do you trust Me, God?” “Yes, I trust you Lord”. “Do you believe I love you?” “Of course you love; I know you do.” “Will you still serve me despite not understanding?” “Until the day I die and after that!” I understood that no matter what goes on in my life or my children’s lives, that in my heart, these answers will always remain the same. God doesn’t mind us asking why, but even in not receiving an answer or one you like, we must always trust in and that our Father God knows best. I'm not so easily defeated; maybe I was down a bit, but I'm Back! With each trial........ I only get stronger! Did you put your armor on??? Be Encouraged Today!!! Have a Happy, Wonderful & Prosperous New Year in the Lord! Remember there's a sinner's prayer on this site. If you have back-slid or haven't tasted and seen that the Lord is Good, say this prayer. You don't have to be in a church building to receive Jesus as Lord and Savior. There is a moment that will happen, and it will happen in a twinkling of an eye (as fast as you can blink), and those who have confessed Jesus as Lord and have walked according to the Word of God will be raptured up to be with Him forever and ever. Yes, it sounds too fantastical to be real, but don't take the chance that it's not and be left behind. So don't put this off. No one knows the hour or the day when this will take place, but it is for us to be ready when it's time to go. The first step is to receive Jesus as Lord and Savior. If you say this prayer, contact me; let me welcome you and personally encouraged you in your new life with Jesus!